Ideas can be dangerous

Heres something new. Graduation coming up I've been thinking about careers and mentioning my skills and interests someone mentioned something I'd never even considered before, law enforcement. So as I always do with a new idea, I researched it.

I love puzzles, patterns and behaviour, as in obsessively. Sure your mind automatically goes to something to do with maths and statistics. I've tried those, I must have been the only one in my class who loved algerbra it just seemed so simple. Sudoku was also very straight forward and tackled quickly when given a book a while ago. However one tiny detail lies in the way of me embracing a career of maths; its boring.

Its just not multilayered enough. Even when I hit a wall where I need to learn a new equation to figuire something out, it still seems the same. My interests have often been more about things I can't understand like behaviour patterns. I like noticing patterns in peoples behaviour, how they walk, talk, hold themselves, what they say, what they do, why, how. I'm logical in breaking down whatever situation I find myself in, looking for the truth, lies and patterns. I also notice details some people miss.

I think if I were to go for a career in law enforcement I would go into it with the idea of a later career in CID, either that or the dog team but likely CID. It would be difficult, particually to start off with. The work of a police officer relies heavily on interpersonal skills. However I think I like the idea of pushing myself to see how much I can do better than hiding out in something less challenging. Therefore its staying in my maybe careers for now.

But you don't look disabled?

I've reached a perilous period in my life, balancing between having everything I've dreamed of since I can remember dreaming, and crashing into a harsh reality of unemployment with 'I don't think you'll fit into our workplace, we need people with good communication skills you see.'

Life must be terrifying for those who rely on their hands rather than mouths for words. I have a similar issue with our increasingly popularised need for language skills. Only, with me its the 90% percent of language that is body language thats the main issue. I can speak, no problem, but when it comes to understanding people I'm a tourist stuck in a foreign land with a very limited translator dictionary. I imagine sometimes for others its like they've walked up to that odd person clutching a small dictionary jotted with learned and purely guesswork translations and tried to engage them in conversation.

Its called aspergers syndrome, on the same spectrum as autism. No, rainman is not a good film to turn to for explanation.

Anyway, I thought I'd write stuff, while my life is approaching a fundimental point, university has a funny way of giving you too much time to think on the future even when piled with work. Next year is when I enter the big wide world and get a full time job, its scary to think about but I certainly have no shortage of plans.

I'm going to earn money, save as much as humanly possible and buy a house that I can see myself living the rest of my life in. My big goal in life so far has been to get a degree, in six months that'll be done bar a huge problem so I'll have to have another long term goal to work towards, or a couple.

Its not going to be easy, but its going to be possible.